How is it almost December, and Christmas, and 2019!? I know I’m not that only one who asks myself these questions, but it’s startling how quickly this year breezed by.

I mean, I’ve already been in living in San Diego for almost a year! It wasn’t too long ago that I was getting lost a million times and giving people blank stares when they explained which part of the city they lived in–oh wait, I still do that.

Maybe it’s the spirit of the holiday season or the after effects of eating too many mashed potatoes on Thanksgiving, but I’ve been feeling very grateful for the time I’ve spent here so far.

Though I’m still trying to figure out my purpose/what I want to do in this lifetime (aren’t we all), I’ve definitely grown immensely in other areas of my life. I freed myself of a toxic relationship, claimed a newfound independence, and moved to a state I’d never even visited on a whim. I’m still writing, running, exploring, and doing all of the things I love. I’m making new friends, who are genuine, caring, and make me feel at home. I’ve kept in touch with old friends and the families abroad who I miss immensely all the time. I talk to my loved ones as much as I can, realizing that our briefs moments together are precious.

Like with most things, I wouldn’t have been able to do any of this without the support of my family and friends. It’s not always easy or what I want to hear, but it’s honest and delivered when I need it the most.

No matter where I am in the world, I’ve never stopped feeling their support. They’ve shown me how much I can rely on them, encouraged me to strive for greatness, and helped me find my place in the world. Most importantly, they’ve shown me that I should never be embarrassed of my choices or mistakes, and especially not to look down on myself because of them.

This clarity has helped me gain more confidence in myself. I’m more driven to put myself first–in a necessary, not selfish way. I’ve focused on forgiving others and especially myself, so that I’m not holding on to things that will only drain my happiness. I’m not punishing myself for things I can’t change.

Of course, I’m not perfect, so there are days when I criticize myself about everything, let another person get under my skin or make silly mistakes, but I’ve learned to be more open, honest, and to seek the company of others who will support me and reinforce all the positive things I have in my life.

I know this all probably sounds sappy or like slew of inspirational quotes strung together, but when I look back on last November to where I am now, I truly am thankful.